When I was young I wished I was a princess. I waited for the day
my parents had to tell me the dreadful news that I was not actually part of their
family (gasp), I, in truth, was a princess. They had promised to take care of me
until it was time for me to return to my kingdom, which would be on my
sixteenth birthday, naturally. That day never came. My dad also never surprised
me with the secret that he was a king who wanted to learn what a normal life
was like for a while. Worst luck for me.
I slowly grew out of my desire to be a princess and replaced it
with a longing to be a heroine, like the ones I idolized in books: Anne
Shirley, Elizabeth Bennet, Jane Eyre, etc. I related to these characters and
their world (no royal blood, no magic) and I admired them more (they had a bit more
depth than my Disney princesses did). As fate would have it, I had just as many
problems becoming one of these heroines as I did in learning I was a princess.
The sad truth was that both my parents were living, were sane, and we were not
destitute. This is not a good backdrop for a heroine. I also lived in the wrong
place—a suburb in America, not a quaint town in England. But the irrecoverable
misfortune was that I was simply born in the wrong era. I lived in a time of
cars and when women wore pants. How can I be a decent heroine if I do not
travel by horse and buggy or wear petticoats?
In recent years I progressed to a new phase. In the two decades I
spent as a heroine addict (ha ha) I noticed only one real difference between me
and them. Putting aside the obvious fact that they are fictional, the only
difference is that they had an author—a Jane Austen or L.M. Montgomery to write
their story. After reaching that conclusion, I quickly came to a second one: I
am a heroine, just unwritten. I lost my longing to be a heroine as I embraced
the realization that I already was one, standing in the midst of my own story. I
discovered the truth in the words of Sara Crewe from A Little Princess, “I am a princess. All girls are.” Or in my case,
“I am a heroine.”
I am a modern-day, quirky, non-fictional heroine and this blog shares
some of my stories and thoughts as such.
**The
initial inspiration for this blog was spawned from a desire to gather interest
for The Jane Game, a trivia board
game based on Jane Austen’s six novels. No longer is this blog directly
connected with the game, though you will probably notice a heavy Austen
influence.



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